Among other things

I wanted to blog, but I'm not feeling particularly keen on any issue, so here are some of my thought processes:

- Brace yourselves, this could be an interesting blog.

- Super happy about the Kinsey and Helen engagement. It's not like it was a surprise for any of us, but it's still nice to see it actually official and what not. Now looking forward to the engagement party, fixing up the flat for them to live in so its all nice and shiny, and the actual wedding. I'd better learn how to cook super fast, I get this strange feeling that my kitchen services will be required. More like I'll end up volunteering my kitchen services, and then stressing out because I've added yet another thing onto my plate. But I wouldn't miss helping out with the wedding for the world.

- My future is getting frightfully close. At the end of this year, I will have a degree. I'm torn between two minds - I want to graduate and move on to other greater things in my life, and I want to hold onto this moment for all its worth, kicking and screaming as I resist change, resist age, resist all the bad and good that come with growing up. Looked at applications for a Masters of Teaching (Secondary) today. I'm planning on doing it part time still, so that I can work, do ministry, and community radio in all that spare time I'll have not being at uni. I wonder if I'm already overcommiting myself?

- In two weeks, Mum, Lana and Julian move. I know that everything is best off as it is now. Things are finally happy for everyone. My Dad is happy. My Mum and David are happy. Lana is a grump about moving, but she'll get over that fairly quickly. But still, sometimes, I wish things were just as they once were. I wish I was five, and I was playing with my first dog Benita in the backyard with my dad and my mum. Can't say what I remember about their relationship. Not much is good. I don't want to grow up any more. How long until I begin looking back on university days wanting to be back at uni, hanging out at Werrington with friends and eating fatty food and all the other fun things we did? I already look back on first year and second year like that!

- I made a new video



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCk_8IQ4y8U

I still want to be famous on the internet. I really just need to be myself. I try too hard at lots of things.

- I still can't work out how I explain the mercy of God and the love of God and the right God has to take and give what he likes in the light of Job. It makes perfect sense in my head. God did nothing wrong. Sure, things sucked for Job for a short while, but who are we as humans to get bitchy when God gives us different circumstances to deal with or when bad things happen? This life is not the only life we have. Jesus gives us hope for something more. Bring on the suffering. What is this life to me? I know for sure that after it is done, I will be in heaven forever. What is an ant to the tallest of trees? And what are a few years to eternity?