Tuesday, September 8, 2009

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I was on facebook one night when I received a message from Christine.

She said that she had been going along to Phridays with Phil, and had been really encouraged by the numbers of eastern suburbs kids committed to city ministry.

She then asked "Where was the southwest version?" "Why was there nothing in the southwest?"

We sat down and talked about it, put together our long list of contacts, and then sent out a mass email, asking if anyone was interested in meeting over dinner to brainstorm how we could be better at uniting for the gospel and reaching the southwest.

Fifty people showed up at that first dinner. It was amazing. I hadn't expected fifty people to show up at all. I had thought maybe thirty if we were lucky but over fifty people came for dinner and to brainstorm what we could do in the southwest.

We needed to inform them of the need in the southwest. The incredible need for people to stay and to actually care about ministry here.

Two main points came from the brainstorming:

1. people wanted to continue networking together. unity was encouraging and everyone was being spurred on by everyone else
2. people could see that anything was possible.

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

jealous

Off to tute.

Wish I were famous.

Or blogged about slightly interesting things

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Happiness

I once knew and cared about many people, and then watched them throw away their potentially grand futures for the seductions of fun and now. It disgusts me to see what their lives have become. What could've been a few years of hard work for a stable and fun filled future, now becomes a fight for day to day basics, a flurry of part time jobs and the culture that is lying, backstabbing, sleeping around, drinking, throwing up in the gutter, spending our bank accounts on food alcohol and lifestyles we can't afford, because this is fun and we can have it now.

It breaks my heart.

I knew you once. You actually had real dreams, real hopes, a future waiting to be written. And now you've thrown it away for this lie, this false happiness. You'll hit forty, wish you'd done something, gotten the education that was offered to you on a silver platter, and realise the hole you are trapped in is too big to climb out of on your own.

Last time we talked, you shrugged it off. "I have no regrets. I'm perfectly happy with the way I am. I'm happy with what my life has become. I'm happy this way."

Are you? Are you really?

Or do these lies make you sleep better at night?

Over It

Why is welcoming so hard and difficult?

I don't think it is at all.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Bedtime

Now off to bed. To get up in three hours , or maybe four, and drive to Campbelltown to visit my favourite person in the whole wide world.

Right after I listen to Juneau once more.

No more writing late night angsty poetry.

Everlong

I wonder, when I sing along with you
If everything could feel this real forever,
If anything could ever be this good again...


Things We Do

She laughed and said no way
This can't be happening
Too excited to contain the emotion
I smiled and was proud
I've always been proud of you
If only you had some idea
How proud you made me
How I beam when you're around

Sometimes I take your things
And I always intend to give them back
It just never happens though
It slips my mind
But then I see my things at yours
And realize we are the same
And I get angry and demand them back
I secretly don't mind

You whisper to me, don't make me go
You fret and worry and panic
I make you go because you'll do fine
You always do achieve
I didn't mean to cry when you read
The first time in front of us
I couldn't let you see me cry
And then I had to leave


Of Sharks, Egg Sandwiches and All In Between

Just sitting on the shelf, ever waiting
To be noticed, but what for? Nothing
Lies you feed yourself daily,
Lies that lie to you

Colours that sweep across the sky
And stretch across the plains before us
This moment should last a lifetime
I'll never wish it's end upon us

Beside me, you'll smile, you'll laugh, and I'll know
You are mine, momentarily forever



Sprint

I seem to be able to write
At three am in the morn
All my feelings are typed
And into words transform

It's me avoiding my bed
It's me avoiding some sleep
It's me avoiding some rest
Which I so badly need.

I wish I were in your arms
I wish you weren't just in my head
If I could compose the songs
I'd sing you my words instead[b]Sprint[/b]

I seem to be able to write
At three am in the morn
All my feelings are typed
And into words transform

It's me avoiding my bed
It's me avoiding some sleep
It's me avoiding some rest
Which I so badly need.

I wish I were in your arms
I wish you weren't just in my head
If I could compose the songs
I'd sing you my words instead



No Diamonds, Please

It's not that I don't love you
I can't explain it like I can with her
Or why I can at least put it in words.

You know you're my everything
I know that I'm yours
Its not about having proof in a ring?

Why can't I hold your hand if you're scared?
Why can't I fight away the monsters in your closet?
Let me protect you, like I promised.

I feel like Christine

When I blog heaps in a short period of time about random thoughts.

Not that I don't enjoy your blogs. I really do. Ooft, they are the best reading material. I love the inner workings of your mind.





My favourite song for the last forever has been Funeral for a Friend - Juneau.
I cant decide which I love more. The original, or the acoustic.

Here are both links.
Original - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ewe1yH_v1OQ
Acoustic - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMvA9IFXCpQ


Tied to the testing of wills, and my heart breaks and spills
Left to the sight of the sky, in your arms I'm defined
Thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies
And I'm stone in the eyes of your foolishness

If this is what I'm meant for , no longer interesting
Fall forward just to even the score
Just a thought to you

And I'm nothing more than a line in your book





Slightly different lyrics in the acoustic version but you get the idea.

I will walk down the aisle to marry my husband to an instrumental arrangement of this song. I'm hoping that it will be on solo bass.

The Authority (Strange Things) - BY X-treem

Bpunited wrote rap songs on our camp.

I present to you my group, consisting of RhysXtreem, KyXtreem, L-Xtreem, T-Xtreem and Mister Joshua Coshua Xtreem

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The Authority (Strange Things)
X-Treem

[T-Xtreem]
I'm going to tell you a story,
About our brother JC.
He heals the sick
because he's God, you see.

[L-Xtreem]
Here come the Pharisees, here come the teachers
Step in and listen as JC preaches.
Here come the lame, oh what a shame.
Can't get in.

[RhysXtreem]
Couldn't move, couldn't breathe,
but they really didn't want to leave.
They had a friend who was lame.
Hoping Jesus'd make him walk again.

[Mister Joshua Coshua Xtreem]
"This guy thinks he's God,"
said the teachers of the law.
"Why you hating man? Why you hating, man?"
said Jesus as he thought about the things
that went on in their heads.
And Jesus said,

[KyXtreem]
"His sins are forgiven, I made him walk,
I've proved myself, but you still wanna talk?
I've shown that I have power to forgive,
this guy can walk, I made him live."

[T-Xtreem]
He picked up his mat and away he went,
his sins forgiven, no dollars spent.
God was glorified, the crowds did say,
"We have seen strange things today!"
Strange things, very strange things.
Oh so strange things, so strange things.

Hold up.

Luke 5, verse 24.
"But that you may know the Son of Man
has power on earth. That is the power on earth
to forgive, what?"

Sins!

Strange things, forgiveness
Strange things, salvation
Strange things, Gerald
Strange things, Amy
Strange things, Mackinley
Strange things, Ken
Strange things, Monica


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I am so proud of my group <3

Friday, July 3, 2009

Living With Child Like Faith

Read a book on this very topic when I was 15. Keen, eager to serve and love God, and willing to believe anything books told me. Not too sure how much is actually biblical and how much is prosperity or other forms of false teaching, but it motivated me to be more of a child around God - which is a good thing I suppose.

These are notes I took on the book in year 10. Still blows my mind that I was reading and taking notes on books like these when I was in year 10. I am not as awesome now.

Living A Child Like Faith

Pray Like A Child
Jesus is your best friend. Talk to him like one.

Don't Rely On Words
Children don't know many words, but their actions are so honest that they don't need to.

Ask for Help
Childlike faith comes from admitting and asking God for help

Embrace Ordinariness
Childlike faith is for ordinary people

Don't stop Playing With God




Not very profound. But still helped me shape my attitudes around God. He stopped becoming this big old man in the sky, and became a very real friend to me in year 10. Sometimes I still forget to treat him like one.

LOL

I am awake at 5:50 AM (need to get ready for work soon) and I am reading my prayer diaries from year 10. So, there I am, 15 years old, writing letters to God in a way that only 15 year olds can do.

This one made me lol. For many reasons.



January 11, 2004
Lord, I'm sorry I didn't go to morning church. I felt sick, and now I feel guilty. Please bless me and Brett with the opportunity to go to Hillsong with Adam. Amen



I dont' know what's funnier:
a) that I felt bad for missing church because I felt sick
b) that I apologised for being sick
c) that I asked God to let me go to Hillsong
d) that both those boys are now gay. (Actually, not very funny, but humerous in the context of the prayer)

:)

cant know how to delete this

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Food

I just realised, at 4:28 am, that in two out of three pictures displayed on my blogger page, I am eating. What a fatty.

This leads me to several conclusions:
- I am hungry
- I wish to have any of the foods or hairstyles in those photos
- I have forgotten my next point
- Why is it now 4:29 am?
- This isn't as profound as I was going for. Oh well, never mind. There's always next time

Theologians and why I am not one

I respect those who write Christian music. Yes, even Hillsong United. Everyone, except for the guy who sung the song at Hillsong Conference last year that pretty much went along the lines of:

"I will never stop loving you
You will never stop loving me
I will never stop
I will never never stop"

I wish I was joking. I'm not sure what saddens me more, him singing so passionately a song with such empty words that are an insult of the love that sent Jesus to the cross, or the thousands of people that filled Acer Arena that night who sung along equally as passionate.

It then followed with a guitar solo. I wonder how much glory God really got in all that...


But, the great songs of our time, and of times before us, and the hymns - I have so much respect for every person who has sat down and said "I want to convey the gospel and God's wonders in song so that they are memorable for all" and then actually done so.

I attempted to. I'm no better than Mister Guitar Solo. I think I'll stick to random prose in future.

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Thank you that your love
Meant Your son crucified on a cross
Thank you that your love
Meant His death was sufficient for us
To be brought home
Where you longed for us to be
Thank you thank you Lord
That you have chosen me

Those nails hammered in, one by one
You turned away from Your only Son
He took Your cup, took your penalty
He drank till it was finished, for me

Monday, June 29, 2009

You Want Strategy?

Stuff it!
Came the cry
We pumped our fists in the air
And cheered for the work that was to be done
For us, by us, in the south west

Fifty odd people
With still some missing
Passionate. Inspired.
Living and breathing Your word.
Waiting to see change
Praying to see revival
For us, by us, in the south west

I want to keep the truth the truth
I want to keep it in my heart
I want to make sure it stays the truth
I want to make sure it's never changed
I want to make sure it's our reason
I want to make sure it's why we fight
I want to see the world come and know you
I want to see it happen with our hands

Stuff you and your resources
Stuff you and your cash
Stuff you and your committed workers
Stuff you and the appeal of your land
Stuff you and your comfortable thousands
Stuff you and your discrimination
Stuff you and your strategy

We'll see training done for us, by us, in the south west
We'll see plants done for us, by us, in the south west
We'll see hearts won by us in the south west
We'll see your light go out, by us in the south west
We'll see your kingdom grow, in the south west
We'll see people know, in the south west
We'll see hope, in the south west
We are the strategy in the south west.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Excuses

I made a new youtube video.

My phone is broken so I am without a camera. This saddens my heart.

My fridge is empty so I am without breakfast.

I'll go shopping later.

Um nothing else to say.

Feels good to be doing my hair again.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I'm not coping

I would never post this on facebook. Why am I posting it here? I want to share it with more than just a dead forum of people who used to write pokemon fanfiction. Yet, I know by posting it here, minimal people will find it, and the people who do find it, well I'm happy for them to read my feeble attempts at writing, and my lovely use of cliche.

I'm sorry. I'm trying really hard but, I'm just not going to cope any time soon, okay?

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Shoe

Stay with me
These lonely roads are haunting to drive along
And in the darkness, in the silence,
There was you
I'm leaping, I'm falling headlong
Into your words, into a memory
I would do anything for this
To last a life time

I'm drowning
I can see the surface but I'd rather sink
Into green backyards, into summer scenes
I'm with you
Running up, running down again
Swing around the old hills hoist
Good bye sweet surface, you have
Nothing to offer me

Tomorrow
You are my most trusted companion
You keep me going, my world there is safe
And comfortable
I'm torn between my two lovers
The yesterday and the yet to come
Now is such an ugly place to be
When compared to you

Blond curls
Bright blue eyes and a reason to grow up
Conquering the world, winning us over
Making me proud
From being born to being here
There's not a moment I would miss
If it were my choice but clearly it's not.
If only it were.

I saved a seat
in church and kept glancing at the door
Fooling myself that you would walk on through
Blush for being late
Stay with me, I begged of you
Please don't leave, but you have too
I would do anything for you
to last a life time here

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I Dream

I live in the past and the future, while surviving in the present.

When I was younger, I dreamed of being an author. Publishing books for children telling stories of fairies, wizards and magic lands far away from human knowledge.

When I was younger, I dreamed of writing and illustrating my own ideas. Binding them and selling them for thousands of other young children to enjoy.

When I was younger, I dreamed of the creatures, the characters, the personalities, the situations, the powers, the ways in which these plots and descriptions would weave their way out of my mind and into the pages before me.

When I was younger, I dreamed of nothing more than being an author.

Then I grew.

When I grew a little more, I dreamed of being a radio star. I wanted to be rewarded for doing something that I was good at. I had talking down pat.

When I grew a little more, I dreamed of presenting, announcing and playing music across the airwaves. Listening to my favourite artists, and then sharing them with the world.

Then I grew.

When I grew older, I dreamed of being a presenter. Children's television seemed like such a fun environment to be involved in.

When I grew older, I dreamed of relaxing in a studio, announcing cartoons, interviewing personalities and sharing fanmail and drawings with thousands of little people, while they eat breakfast and get ready for school.

Then I met Jesus.

When I became a Christian, I dreamed of knowing God, understanding him completely, being in his presence, sharing his wonderful gift with all those around me.

When I became a Christian, I dreamed of nothing more than making sure those around me weren't going to hell. To save the souls they didn't realize they lost, oh what a joy.

When I became a Christian, I decided that I wanted to do God's work forever. Even if that meant my childhood dreams would remain just that, dreams.

I'm growing older still.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Be Excited, South West

Because God is coming!

Well , not that not already here.

But he's coming like you've never seen him before.

Through a bunch of dedicated, God loving, spirit filled, hard working, Jesus worshipping, young leaders who are passionate to take God's words to the streets. Through a group of young people, middle aged people, people who are still learning about the riches of Gods grace, who want to pray so hard about our area, thank God for the work he's doing in our area, and brainstorm ways in which we can be practically helping God in our area.

Keep praying that God will revolutionize this area.
The south west needs it.


Praise God.
:-)

Monday, May 11, 2009

Among other things

I wanted to blog, but I'm not feeling particularly keen on any issue, so here are some of my thought processes:

- Brace yourselves, this could be an interesting blog.

- Super happy about the Kinsey and Helen engagement. It's not like it was a surprise for any of us, but it's still nice to see it actually official and what not. Now looking forward to the engagement party, fixing up the flat for them to live in so its all nice and shiny, and the actual wedding. I'd better learn how to cook super fast, I get this strange feeling that my kitchen services will be required. More like I'll end up volunteering my kitchen services, and then stressing out because I've added yet another thing onto my plate. But I wouldn't miss helping out with the wedding for the world.

- My future is getting frightfully close. At the end of this year, I will have a degree. I'm torn between two minds - I want to graduate and move on to other greater things in my life, and I want to hold onto this moment for all its worth, kicking and screaming as I resist change, resist age, resist all the bad and good that come with growing up. Looked at applications for a Masters of Teaching (Secondary) today. I'm planning on doing it part time still, so that I can work, do ministry, and community radio in all that spare time I'll have not being at uni. I wonder if I'm already overcommiting myself?

- In two weeks, Mum, Lana and Julian move. I know that everything is best off as it is now. Things are finally happy for everyone. My Dad is happy. My Mum and David are happy. Lana is a grump about moving, but she'll get over that fairly quickly. But still, sometimes, I wish things were just as they once were. I wish I was five, and I was playing with my first dog Benita in the backyard with my dad and my mum. Can't say what I remember about their relationship. Not much is good. I don't want to grow up any more. How long until I begin looking back on university days wanting to be back at uni, hanging out at Werrington with friends and eating fatty food and all the other fun things we did? I already look back on first year and second year like that!

- I made a new video



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCk_8IQ4y8U

I still want to be famous on the internet. I really just need to be myself. I try too hard at lots of things.

- I still can't work out how I explain the mercy of God and the love of God and the right God has to take and give what he likes in the light of Job. It makes perfect sense in my head. God did nothing wrong. Sure, things sucked for Job for a short while, but who are we as humans to get bitchy when God gives us different circumstances to deal with or when bad things happen? This life is not the only life we have. Jesus gives us hope for something more. Bring on the suffering. What is this life to me? I know for sure that after it is done, I will be in heaven forever. What is an ant to the tallest of trees? And what are a few years to eternity?

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Dragon Ball & Light Sticks

I just realised I never made a blog about my latest video.

So yeah, here's something that I created last week while reflecting upon Dragon Ball. Has everyone seen that yet? Go and see it! It's horrible! You must watch it!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K0z2Gc49_fw

Also, I'm avoiding another uni assignment. Can you tell? Who wants to finish writing my assignments for me?

Sometimes I want to be popular on youtube lots. And then I remember that God is actually my goal, not being popular on youtube. So then I reshuffle things. And then I make another video and want to be popular again. Hmmm....

:)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

What does God owe Job anyway?

So, I was asked this question the other day:

"If God is so loving, then why did he pick on Job just to prove a point to the devil? How loving is that?"

That's obviously paraphrased. Won't say who asked, just in case they don't want to be named.

I don't know enough about Job to answer this question. So I'm expecting all you bible collage students to write me long essays about it. Actually, dot point answers would be fine.

The only responses I have to this question are:

- Well, all of the things that belonged to Job's were God's anyway to do with what he pleased. God doesn't technically owe anything to Job.

- And read the last chapter (Job 42) - God turns around and gives Job everything he once had back, and makes him twice as prosperous as he was before. Job is blessed with thousands of sheep, cattle, has so many kids and lives to see them out to the fourth generation. :) That short period of suffering compared to hundreds of years of enjoying God's blessings.... :)

- I like the last verse: "After this, Job lived a hundred and fourty years, he saw his children and their children to the fourth generation. And so he died, old and full of years." (Job 42:16-17)

- I don't really know what else.

So yeah. Have I missed anything? Is there anything else people want to add?

Saturday, May 2, 2009

So , where do we draw the line?

Okay, so on Church Weekend Away one of the things that really challenged me was Hebrews 10:24-25; where it makes the point "Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let usencourage one another - and all the more as you see the Day approaching" (NIV).

This challenged me because I am a stickler for showing up to church, and it was mind boggling and hard hitting to learn that I must be gentle because it's not all about showing up at 10:30 or 6pm to church, but meeting together with other Christians is anywhere and any time.

So here's my issue.

Where do we draw the line between being gentle and commitment?

Sure, I need to be gentle and its not all about "you missed church last sunday so therefore...." etc etc etc. I'm working on it, I really am. Just in the same way you can be encouraging new christians who don't go to a church service by meeting up with them instead of going "So you need to go to 10:30 family church, send your kids to sunday school, also you'll need to take them to youth group, join a bible study as well, attend Womens events, don't foget about the several church camps we run..." etc.

But how do we respond (lovingly) to people who fall short of their commitments to a church service? Do we have a right to be disappointed and annoyed with them, to shoot down their excuses, are we allowed to be upset and frustrated that there is nobody on sound because they just didn't show up? (I'm just ranting- i'm not having a go at sound people , gosh we don't even have a sound person at night church! :P)

Where is the line?

How are we meant to react to this , in a godly manner?

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Humble Pie

Humility is a bit like a bad pie. Think spinich pie, or a broccoli pie. A pie full of good things, full of nutrition, full of the stuff that our bodies need to grow and develop - that is hard to swallow and doesn't taste all that great.

Weird analogy? It probably is. But today in CBM, we were looking at the book of Daniel and looking at the way that God really humbles Nebuchadnezzar by removing his kingdom. You can read it for yourself in Daniel 4. Nebuchadnezzar pretty much gets a dream from God about how great his kingdom is, but how if he doesn't turn to God, he'll lose it all. Daniel tells him this, and yet, King Nebby just doesn't listen!

I just don't understand how King Nebby can still be so proud and ignore God - even when God himself warns him of his impending destruction.

But then, I guess I'm a little like good old King Nebby at times. I guess there are times when God just has to remove those things that stand in our way to teach us who really is boss after all. Nebby lost his entire kingdom - reduced to eating grass like a cow - just so God could really teach him and build him up from nothing.

People say things like the financial crisis are terrible, and sure, lots of people are struggling and lots of people are facing hard times right now because of it, but how wonderful is God for giving us the opportunity to become humble before him?

Now I'm not blaming the GFC on God, or saying that God is happy about the people who are suffering - these terrible things happen because we live in a terrible world who doesn't want anything to do with God. I am saying that even in these dark times, God is still lovingly providing for us and teaching us about the important things, those things that will last eternally, and giving us the chance to be humbled before him. If we don't have anything to be proud about, how then can we be proud?

Food for thought. God making us humble is a wonderful thing, yet painful at the time. God teaching us patience, testing our love, and continually shaping us to be like his Son hurts, because it costs us and requires sacrifice. But for eternal life, I don't think that's really much to pay at all.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Hello Assignments

Approaches To Text
- I should really check what is due
- Apparently I'm meant to read all of Dr Jekyl & Mr Hyde by last Monday. Sigh.

Radio Journalism
- Some group activity for Monday
- At least 3 western sydney radio stories but most like 5 or 6

Television Journalism
- Finish editing sequence
- Record narration
- Export the entire thing onto another tape

Visual Thinking
- Analysis of Fantasia by Thursday
- Presentation by Thursday on FAntasia and other animation
- Presentation summary by the thursday after
- 3000 word essay due week 12 (OMG THREE WEEKS NOT EVEN *DIE DIE DIE*)



Sorry. I will now have no social life. Please bear with me in these hard times.
If you wish to see me, come to church on Sunday night ;)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Manning St Take Away - good cheap uni food :)

During a mad hunt for free on street parking at Kingswood campus the other day, I discovered a little row of shops tucked away neatly in Manning St. For those of you unfamilliar with street names, Manning St is opposite the park with the swings and is the first street you come across when walking from the uni past the primary school. Right at the end of these little shops, hidden in a back corner, was a small takeaway shop with a little yellow sign bearing faded words that read "Manning St Take Away".

The store was cluttered with a narrow passage between the counters and hot food display and shelving behind. A small Asian lady with a friendly smile stood awaiting my order.

The first thing to appeal to me about this obscure little eatery were the prices. Less than half the price of any UWS Connect store, I was able to buy a chicken burger for $3.50, chips for $2.50, potato scollops at 70 cents each - prices I hadn't seen in a long time! Lunch suddenly became affordable once again to a poor starved Centerlink receiving student like me. The lady nodded as she took my order, and returned shortly with my food all wrapped and ready to go.

I wasn't sure what to expect when I unwrapped my chicken burger. The store was hidden, narrow and dark inside, the little Asian lady seemed friendly enough, but for the price I had paid, would the burger be safe, let alone tasty?

It was marvelous. Among the best chicken burgers I had ever had. The meat was moist and the right texture, the lettuce crunchy, the tomato fresh and ripe, the maonaise tangy and sweet, the bread roll light and fluffy. The only downside to my burger was that it ended too soon. The chips and potato scollops were fairly average - there isn't really much that changes between stores in the flavor of chips except for their price. And for $2.50, the portion we were served was very generous.

All up, my chicken burger, chips and potato scollop lunch cost me $6.70 - which for the same price at UWS Connect, I could possibly get a packet of wedges with sour cream and have 20 cents change. If you're going to be bothered to walk up the stairs to get to the food court, walk that extra five minutes and save your money. It's much better value.

:-)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Being Bold, Yet Gentle (Hebrews 10:24-25)

Went away to Kiah Ridge with the church on our Weekend Away - and came back once again refueled and ready for action of a different kind.

The weekend was very challenging practically, which is the kind of challenge I love. If I can't take it and go "Okay! This is what I am going to change about x y and z!" then I seem to get frustrated and confused how to apply it to my life.

Looking at Hebrews, and in particular Hebrews 10:24 - 25, I was so challenged as to what church is and what it means and how we can be encouraging our friends and people at church. Praise God ! It's fantastic to be encouraged and challenged about these things and I've been so pumped ever since.

Usually, when someone says "Don't give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing" and explains the importance of following people up, making sure that they are okay in their walk with God and all that other stuff, I immediatley run out and tackle anyone who wasn't at church the previous week, screaming and yelling things like "WHY WEREN'T YOU AT CHURCH?! WHY ARE YOU TURNING AWAY FROM GOD?!"

God is ever patient and forgiving with me. Thank goodness for that. He lovingly showed me over the weekend something that seems so ridiculously obvious now that I look at it, but that I couldn't see before.

"Meeting together" isn't meeting together at a 9:30 service, or a 10:30 service, or at 6pm service, or at youth group, or bible study, or any other structured activity. Meeting together is simply, meeting together, catching up, hanging out - and when there are two or more, it's church! Augh, so simple. How could I be so dumb not to realise it?

The whole point is to not get hung up on attending a service or activity, but to keep meeting with Christians, keep encouraging them to honor God and to encourage others. It just makes so much sense.

And so now, I'm trying to be a lot more gentle. It's okay if the conversation doens't result in a total commitment from the other person to church, and it's also okay to invite people to church / youth group / whatever. The most important thing is that they (and us) don't stop meeting up with other Christians and encouraging each other. I'm not saying that church is irrelevant or anything like that - I'm just making the point that Hebrews isn't specifically talking about a 6pm service or anything.

Which has been view changing for me.

Praise God :)

Dragon Ball - Best Served as a Cartoon

Dragon Ball
Directed by: James Wong
Released into Cinemas: A few weeks ago. Thursday 9th April?

It was a cold, dreary, rainy Tuesday night, leaving me depressed and unmotivated to go outside. Upon remembering that Tuesday night was Tight-Ass Tuesday, and that movie prices were a mere $10, I decided to go and experience the wonders of the Dragon Ball movie myself.

I had heard it was rated 1.5 stars, which I found hard to believe. If Twilight had gotten 2 stars, how bad could Dragon Ball really be?

I think James Wong has really mastered the art of butchering cartoons, because that's what he seems to do with Dragon Ball. The first two minutes left me feeling like I had walked into The Karate Kid by mistake. This was followed by an hour and a half of cheesy dialogue, cliched lines, fake characters and terrible acting. Themes such as avenging the grandfathers death, saving the world, and getting the girl were nothing new, and were horribly done. I cringed every time Bulma dramatically declaired that they would find the Dragon Balls.

As for links to the cartoon - poorly done Mr Wong. The costuming is terrible and cheesy, and frankly, Goku and Bulma looked ridiculous. Bulma's hair was also blue originally, I don't think the costuming department really cut it by putting one blue hair extension in her fringe. Surely they could've invested in a wig if they couldn't afford to do a real job? The only person who I thought was done fairly well was Master Roshi, bearing the same Hawaiian shirt he was famous for in the series.

If you loved the cartoon as I did, you'll spend the entire movie waiting to see how they portray characters in real life. Sadly, you'll be disappointed. Picollo, the green alien from Planet Namek, appeared as though he'd just walked off the set of Doctor Who rather than the brutal creature he was in the cartoon. Only very few characters feature in the Dragon Ball movie, leaving you disappointed when you realise old favourites, like Vegeta and Krillen, aren't even mentioned.

Dragon Ball left me feeling nostalgic and remeniscent of my days as a kid when I didn't mind being late to school for the sake of watching Dragon Ball Z. Like majority of the audience, the movie continuously made me laugh, leaving me unable to take it seriously. Overall, it was cheesy and poorly done, but I'm glad I was part of that experience. It gives me yet one more thing to complain to my friends about.

I don't think I'm alone in saying that Dragon Ball really works best as a cartoon.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Dear Christine

I like your blogs. You are interesting to read, and I actually took the time today to go onto blogger and read your blogspot blogs because you refuse to post them on Facebook.

Please come back to facebook.

The end

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I'll exercise.... In a thousand years

So this morning I got up and went for a walk. I'm so fit I can climb mountains now. Take that, Everest. Yeah...

And last night at church, we talked about the Satan ruling for a thousand years issue in Revelation 20. Interesting stuff. I guess people just always freak out when a symbol is so tangible and they can associate closely with it, so they forget it's symbolic. I mean, if creatures covered in thousands of eyes and wings and slain lambs and lions are all symbolic, why wouldn't other parts of the vision be symbolic too?

I always used to read Revelation, and try and pick which signs were happening right now just so that I could play prophecy finder or something. I used to get a real kick out of it too. But its way more fun to play "see how this glorifies God" so I recommend that game for all. :) It's easier and you'll get a more accurate answer too.

And instead of doing my assignment last night (it's not a HARD assignment anyway), I made a video. Because last week (well all the time really), I forgot someone's name and called them the wrong name and it was lovely and awkward and yeah... =)

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zs9lPa_8S2E

Laters xx

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I don't know them, or when it's due!

So, once again, uni time means that I am avoiding assignments like they are the black plague, or yellow fever, or like something else that you want to avoid. :) But it's due in 3 hours. Help me someone! I have 160 words written out of 500, but I just have no idea how much I am meant to waffle on about without actually making a point. I now remember why I hated HSC english, as much fun as I think it is to analyse movies.

English ruined my ability to enjoy crime fiction shows. I still love NCIS, but I can pick the person who did it mostly. My dad and I have betting competitions to see who killed the person. :) Good times. We're pretty even. We should really start keeping a tally.

And sleepover bonfire night tonight. Woo. Kate found these awesome bonfire bin things for $7 at bunnings so I'm pretty much going on a bonfire spree this winter. Everyone, come over and roast marshmallows with me!

One last thing; new video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3a09uV0O4w0
Playing around with editing and things like that. I still am of the opinion that windows movie maker is limited and ghey and I can't do half the things that a mac can do. And my computer just doesn't have the room for any more programs - so I may be needing to invest in a new computer soon so that I can get Sony Vegas or something.

I refuse to buy a mac.

Xoxoxoxox

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Are you even listening to me?

I have the feeling that we dont' really listen to people when they're talking. I mean, we pull the listening face (eyebrows down) but I don't think we're really taking in all the words. I get this at work all the time, I'll ask a question, and then people will respond with the answer to the question that they thought I was going to ask (which wasn't what I asked at all)! Oh the humanity!

Yeah, aside from that, with uni back - things are rather hectic. I'll cope though... somehow... =)

I like working in a coffee shop.

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5SpKifTjv4

Sunday, March 8, 2009

What do I really need

She actually needs to go to bed.

But lets see what Google thinks I need.

1. Tara needs to be in one place long enough to establish a trusting relationship with a good, interested, capable therapist.
2. Tara needs to keep her clothes on.
3. Tara needs a new nose thanks to cocaine
4. Tara needs to have its mouth washed out
5. Tara needs a hug
6. Tara needs to accept that no one is self sufficient all the time
7. Tara needs a nickname
8. Tara needs a fashion coach who will not let her outside the house until she appears close to normal.
9. Tara needs a forever home.


Some of those were scarily accurate.
Others were quite ridiculous.
Fun times.


I was surprised how many times links for other people named Tara came up in the google search. I had to skip over those.



Been really busy lately. Here's a quick rundown of a few weeks:
- uni
- tutoring starting
- work at Gloria Jeans
- mum's wedding
- baptism
- birthday parties
- covering for mum at her work
- wedding preparation
- driving places
- youth group
- church / bible study


Tara needs TO SLEEP.

(and make some more youtube videos)

Monday, February 16, 2009

one hundred boreds

See boredom? Look what you have driven me to. Nothing but time-passing mundane tasks of answering questions and ticking boxes.


001. Real name → Tara Jane :)
002. Nickname(s) → Helga, Taraaaah (you know, like Tadaaa)
003. Zodiac sign → Capricorn
004. Male or female → female
005. Elementary School → Mary Immaculate Primary - rofl what a crap schoool
006. Middle School → none. suckers
007. High School --> Bossley Park High
008. Hair color → Black at the moment; was blue in January, blonde in December, brown in November.... etc
009. Long or short → Longer at the moment, might get it cut. Oh the possibilities!
010. Loud or Quiet → usually loud. unless im tired. then dead. x_X like that.
011. Sweats or Jeans → jeans.
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → Not really. I eat off the floor
014. Drink or Smoke? Occasionally have a beer or a UDL, but no smoking
015. Do you have a crush on someone? no. I'm in LOVE! woo
016. Eat or Drink → all the time baby
017. Piercings → 3 in one ear, 1 in the other - plans to get more in the other and stretch!
018. Tattoos → one day??

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplan--> a few times. The best part is when you crash
020. Been in a relationship → in one now. Best ever
021. Been in a car accident → yeah. Rofl my bad
022. Been in a fist fight → I could totally take you on

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears
024. First best friend → Liza & Robert in primary school. Best peoples ever
025. First award → Don't remember lol
026. First crush → Robert in primary school
027. "the more we love someone the less we ought to please them" - what does this even mean?
028. First big vacation → When my dad left, mum and the family roadtripped up to QLD , stopping in at newcastle and at coffs harbor. Good times. Then we outdid that one by going to europe. Better times.

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Tina, about my pay rofl
030. Last person you texted → Soong
031. Last person you watched a movie with --> well we watched the Eva Green scenes in Casino Royale on the weekend, so does that count? If so, then Soong, Thom, Erin, Kins, Helen, Tim, Steph, Jekka, Jason, am I forgetting anyone?
032. Last food you ate → Ham & Cheese Crossont. Best ever
033. Last movie you watched ---> Casino Royale?
034. Last song you listened to → I don't know the song name. It's Gloria Jeans radio though
035. Last thing you bought → Ham cheese crossont and tires for my car :)
036. Last person you hugged → Soong

FAVES:
037. Food → yum everything except tofu
038. Drinks → tap water and fanta and passionfruit udl rofl
039. Clothing → my AIH shirt, my homebake shirt and my trash n roll shirt. All good good buys.
040. Flower → sunflowers because they are happy
041. Animal → Cows
042. Colors → I can't choose!
043. Movies ---> The Lion King. Pulp Fiction. Elephant
044. Subjects → Ext 2 English. Art. Business Studies. Ancient History just because it was fun to jump on desks and out of windows (that was hsc)
Photo Journalism, New Media, Writing for the Professions and anything else that has been eitehr really bludgy or had really fun people at uni!!!

IN 2008..... I

045. [x] kissed someone
046. [ ] celebrated Halloween
047. [ ] had your heart broken
048. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
049. [x] questioned someone's sexual orientation
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant/got someone pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion
053. [x] done something you've regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [x] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [x] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. [ ] left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [ ] ran a mile
063. [x] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
064. [x] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x] hated someone
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → I wish
068. Drinking → nope
069. I'm about to → ... are you stupid whoever made this up? I'm clearly about to answer the next question
070. Listening to → Gloria Jeans Radio
071. Plans for today → go back to work in like 2 hours, and ummmmmmmmmm get my car , cook dinner (YUM butter chicken) and stuff like that
072. Waiting for → Soong to message me

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → yes
074. Want to get married? yessums
075. Careers in mind → teacher? mad radio person? youth minister?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes → eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous → both
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → neither.
080. Sensitive or loud → both
081. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → Godly. there. take that quiz. I made up my own option

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → many many times
084. Ran away from home → no. Where would I run? I'd get puffed out at the end of my street
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → nope.
086. Killed somebody → yeah mangs. all the time
087. Broken someone's heart → probably
088. Been arrested → nopee
089. Cried when someone died → yeah mang. still cry about it. you just dont' get over some things

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → yes
091. Miracles → Yeah. who says god can't work a little out the box?
092. Love at first sight → nah mang. that's called lust. love is commitment
093. Heaven → Yeah. I'm going there. are you?
094. Santa Claus → My brother cried for a week when we told him Santa isn't real. He was 10
095. Sex on the first date -- How about sex on the first night of marriage? HECK YES
096. Kiss on the first date → nah mang. How fast do you wanna roll?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes. AND I'm with him yay
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → Don't see what's so bad about it
099. Do you believe in God? → Yeah mang. Only reason for living much?
100. Post as 100truths and tag 10 ppl - THIS ISNT A QUESTION. So really, its only 99 truths you idiots. 98 if you don't include the stupid question that is question 27

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Unleash the dorkiness within

I've discovered two new words:

1. dweeb
2. mang


Both of which I am currently using like they're going out of fashion. Which they probably have been for years anyway, but moving along.

Extreme tiredness anyone? *puts up hand* I'm feeling it, let me tell you. I'm feeling it right down to my bones. Work is hard , and tiring , but it pays the bills! (I wanted to end that sentence with MANGS but i guess that I can save it for another day)

What exactly is a mang? I heard it was just another way of saying - man - but like, more the gamer asian way. I hope its not something dirty.

And yeah.

How to speak like a dweeb: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6_RULDvY5I



Laters, mangs.
rofl

Monday, February 9, 2009

Why can't it be fixed?

I hate it when things are broken, but you really want to use them. And because you CAN'T use them, you want to use them even more.

Like when I was a kid, and my Lion King video broke. There were days I would put it into the vcr anyway, just in case it worked again. Of course, it never did. Often it got jammed in there too. And then, because I couldn't use it, I wanted to all the more.

And like the other night when I wanted to read Harry Potter.

This is what happened to my Harry Potter: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-OJZcGEASxQ



Why is the world so cruel???

Monday, January 26, 2009

Best Summer Ever!

Everything is the best summer ever at the moment. I seriously think this has been one fantastic summer. I've learnt heaps about God, seen him do lots of really awesome stuff, I've had time to rest and relax (woo), been on beach mission (which was awesome), been to Canberra (mega awesome), got goldfish, been to January Ministry Conference, and just really spent lots of time with old friends.

I miss people.

I miss you.

Yes you.

So, January is almost over, which is scary because it feels like the year is going so fast. Why does time speed up? It's scary to think that I will never ever live this day again - am I going to regret spending it on the internet doing nothing??

... no.


Anyway yesterday's Australia Day was really awesome. Just a barbecue with Soongers, Kins and Thompants - but those three boys are amazing and I love them all (naww.) It's only a minute long, it won't kill you to watch it :P

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=oPOCtFumwoo

Saturday, January 24, 2009

numbers? am i meant to number these?

Happy Australia Day for tomorrow. I want to have a barbecue but this year I'm feeling oh so lazy.

So I'm making someone else organise one. But I'll be having a barbecue nevertheless! Woo for Australia Day Barbecues. I just feel so Aussie right now.

In other news I got some goldfish, and there are fights and domestics between Soong & I vs Soongs Dad about whether we can keep them in Soong's room or not. Soong's dad is convinced if there is a blackout, the filter will reverse and spit water out onto the carpet/power cords, and so yesterday whilst Soong & I were out eating kebabs with friends, his dad moved the fish tank.

We're moving it back tomorrow.

It's on like donkey kong.

Also, youth group starts in like 2 weeks and I CANT WAIT!!!
And we're supposed to have a new student minister at night church by now... that is very exciting. Suspence.

The end.
Bye.
See you later.

Are goldfish meant to swim backwards, or just stay in the same spot?